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Dikamar ku menyepi.Hanya lilin menerangi.Beginikah seksanya.Wednesday, August 6, 2008 Hidup dalam penantian.Ditabir tirai malam.Ada insan kesepian, keseorangan... Dan setiap detik yang ku lalui. Seluruh malam ku membisu.Tetap setia menantimu. Bayanganmu entah di mana. Mengapa harus kita ditemukan. Di saat jiwaku keresahan. Apakah aku satu persinggahan. Mengubat rindu... oh...Kau dahagakan...Ku kehausan... Setitis rasaPada bayangan yang tak pasti... oh...Kau nyalakan perasaanMengukir kemesraan. Mungkinkah ada sinar. Bersama impianku. Dah telah ku duga, Suasana keindahan seketika. Aku tetap menanti mu. Kau dahagakan...Ku kehausan...Setitik rasa... oh... Aku tenggelam...Kehampaan...Keseorangan...Mana sinaran ?... Terangilah hidupkuTak sanggup lagi... aku... sepi... posted at : 12:21 PM Ur Love will Always Bossom in My Heart
You symbolise the Flower that Blossoms in my heart. Monday, July 14, 2008 I hope that you will blossom always till the end of time. You symbolize the Star that Shines my miserable life and I hope you will always be shinning till the end of the world. Whenever you in need of me, I will always be there by your side. Whenever I miss of You, It feels like my love for you getting deeper and deeper. Darling, my love for you will last forever. Your love had Blossomed in my heart. You are always in my mind till the rest of my life, till the last breath of mine. For the love that wont falter against the test of time and till death will fail me. That's my oath for you Darling. My beloved wife. posted at : 12:34 PM HURTS
I'm disappointed not because of your isolated love but I'm disappointed as there's no truth and honesty in your love towards me. I'm not sad for being hurt by you but I'm deeply hurts in agony by your betrayals. So before my love became hatred for you, I wish to let you go gerl. When there's no more truth, honesty and faith in love. The love that we had won't last till eternity as our faith and principles in love will be shaken and will not stand strong against the test of time. Its better for me to cry in pain now as I'm not willing to cry painfully in the near future. I shall accepted my fate of losing you my love as I believe I might find your replacement by God will. What I had wanted is a soul mate to share my life with in happiness and sadness. Be it, if we are poor or rich. As such, I'm willing to let you go my love to be with the guy you loves and which can give you happiness and a comfortable life. A better life than what you are having now with me. A miserable life.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 posted at : 3:35 AM Thanks for the Painful N Sorrowfull Experiences
The laughter that i once had,was gone as tears had replaced it in my life. The love that i once had for you was lost as only hatred that develop with it. My life in this world was like a drama. Thanks for giving me a miserable and painful experiences as drinking poison or stabbing my hearts with knife are incomparable to it. Even though how painful and miserable i am, i will still carry on with my life with every little steps that i can muster as time after times are against me until the end.Thanks for the insults that you had throw to me, with all the hurts and my heart bleeding. Thanks for the insults and shamed that you had given to me without even sparing my dignity and pride.To you, I will like to say THANK YOU for the PAINFUL N SORROWFUL Experiences that u had given me. I know u will treat NZM better as i he was your First love. And I know you will do anything for him. Praising and worshipping him to accolade. Your love for him are much stronger that even the fear of committing sins won't stop.
Monday, May 12, 2008 posted at : 2:13 PM Its so painful
Well, life is such a misleading.Some time what you see or hear might not be the truth and what you might not see or hear might be the truth. Recently I found out something that make me depressed so much that I'm putting a smile but crying out loud inside me. What i believed to be the truth that time was not mean to be. Whatever the explanation or story was more than a farce. How i wish that i did not find out the whole truth so that i can just move on happily. But now it seem it will be more HARDER THAN BEFORE. Oh god please give me strength and wisdom to overcome this obstacles. There's no need to lie in the first place as I trust every word you said at that time but know,everything down the drain. All the reasons and explanations about things, I had already accepted but it make me feels like a fools. How could you do this to me. Was it my mistakes to lead you on....Is it fair for you to do this to me after all that i had done for you. Silently you are killing me inside without even blathering your eyes lid. Believing in every words you said and giving you so much patience and what did you give me....FARCE and LIES. Still I will act like an ignorant fool as I don't want confrontation that might hurts both of us or other parties. I will swallow my pride and make you think that I will not find out what you have done as I don't want to hurt you. Gone are the day when I can be very revengeful guy and show no mercy to peoples who hurts me as i have mellow down over the years. The other side of me which you don't know and never see before as you were lucky to meet me as I am now. Cool,calm and chill guy. Ever forgiving to people eventhough they have hurt me.I sit here on the stairs Cause I'd rather be alone.If I can't have the truth from you right now.I'll wait dear.Sometimes I get so tense but I can't speed up the time. But you know what, there's one more thing to consider. Said woman take it slow and things will be just fine. You and I'll just use a little patience. Said it B....ch take the time cause the lights are shining bright on you and I've got what it takes to make it. I won't fake it, I'll never break it cause I can't take it but just a little patience to spare, yeah, a little patience, and some more patience, which i could need some patience, and gotta have some patience, Oh God what it takes is just patience. A little patience is all I need as I'VE BEEN WALKING THE STREETS TONIGHT. JUST TRYING TO GET IT RIGHT. ITS HARD TO SEE WITH SO MANY PEOPLES AROUND. I DON'T LIKE BEING STUCK IN THE CROWD AND THE STREETS DON'T CHANGE BUT MAYBE THE NAMES. I AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THE GAME CAUSE I NEED THE TRUTH, CAUSE I NEED THE TRUTH, WHAT I NEED IS JUST THE TRUTH FROM YOU, ALL THIS TIME. posted at : 12:32 PM Untittle
You left me once.You were with someone else. Then I took you back, But now you have changed you mind again and you have betray my trust by being with another guy who used to be your lover. How could you love two guys at the same time.Confused and ridiculed, I rather be alone. No longer living just, Kinda here.You say you Still love me but secretly you had sex with him and confess to me, blaming , ( in the moment of time) prompt you to do what you had done which I don't know what to think and should I BELIEVED and TRUST. You say you are confused and I want you to know, that so am I and I guess that's OK but wait... What you did had hurt my pride and dignity as a MAN...I forgive you from the bottom of my hearts. For now... I wish the part of me that loves you, Was the part of me that's gone. I wish the parts of me you hurt were the part I would throw away.I wish the part of me that lingers on, Would leave and go away. And that the parts of me you touched could be the parts I cut away. I wish all this could be true, But if it was there would be nothing left.I wish we could start over,Or better yet never have had a beginning.Then you never could have hurt me Or loved me or touched me.But they will always be apart of me .Because I love you still. More than words can ever express. More than you will ever know. For reasons I don't even know. I love you still and always will be living with your betrayal. As I'm good as dead and my concerns was your happiness ALWAYS....
posted at : 12:00 PM ANGER
This ill temper I have is making me mad. I blow up and I don’t know why. I wish for just a moment I could handle my anger right. I wish for just a moment, I could love you right. I wish my attitude would just go away. I wish my anger would stay at bay. This outlook I have on life needs to change. This outlook I have you needs to say the same. I love you deep down inside. I wish you would see. That you’re the only princess for me. The anger I have deep in side, Comes out when I least expect it. This anger I have in me should just go away. This anger I have is an annoyance. This anger I have has messed my life up. This anger I have is stupid. Anger you have messed up my love for you. Anger you have messed up my life. Anger you have destroyed who I am inside and out. Anger you are the devil, Anger you are all that is bad. This anger I have in me has made me fight. A fight that was not worth it. Anger you made me hit the wrong person. Anger you made me do the wrong things. Anger you are the feeling that I would never miss. Anger you have caused me so much sorrow. Anger you have caused nothing but grief. Anger just go away
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